Finally, I'm ready to move on. Yes, I know Allah SWT will always there for me. And that would be enough for me😊. Tipulah if I said I don't love him anymore. Yes, he still in my heart. But I don't put any hopes on him anymore. He will never find any girls who will love him the way I love him. Will treat him the way I treat him. Will accept his weakness, his dark side, his imperfections the way I accept everything about him. Dendam? Nahh I'm to old for that thinggy. And I think I deserve untuk hidup tenang. I don't blame him for everything that happened to us, and it's not fair to put blame on me too. But at least I've already do all my best for him and for our relationship. There's nothing I would regret.
After everything that I've already done for him, there's nothing to regret. I've already gave my best for him. I never cheated on him(because that's all he asked from me since first time we know each other). I'm always there for him susah atau senang. I trying my best to help him every time bila dia susah or ada masalah(he also did the same thing for me). I'm always try my best to give everything he wanted, including learned to cook nasi lemak with sambal sotong because he craving for it( even my sambal tak berapa menjadi) but still Ive done my best. I also made a beautiful suprise for his birthday and I know we both were so happy that night, we sing, we laugh, we smile all night long. I hope he will remember that moment for the rest of his life. We also go for a vacation together. Even it's a short vacation, but that time is the happiest moment for both of us.
So I know Ive already done my best for this relationship. I work so hard for this relationship, I give all my commitment that I never give to anyone. We created so many wonderful memories and he gave so much impact on my life. I realize he still hold a special space in my heart, but I know moving on is the best decision for my own happiness. This will be the last post I wrote about him, and I will never mention about him after this. Because I know, he already happy with his life and never think about me. I'm fine with it:)
I know we both break's each other heart. I'm truly sorry for everything I've done or said to him that might hurt him. I will always appreciate every moment we shared together, every love he gave me even just for awhile. Whatever he's up to now,I hope he knows I only wish him the best in the world. There's nothing I want but the best for him. I always pray for his happiness. Watch he happy already good enough for me.
Im also happy for myself, I no longer depend on him to be happy. I've already found my happiness( it's not like I've already date someone, no no no I'm not ready for that yet.), I'm happy being single for now. I'm ready to create a new memory's and forget everything that's hurt me. I would not make myself down anymore, I had enough with everything that hurts me and nothing can hurt me anymore.
Goodluck dear self, do your best😊😊
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