Today I realized something. Something yang I've keep thinking since 3 years ago. WHY?
Yes, suddenly I've been thinking about fitri. I've met him 5 years ago, at that time I study dekat kuantan. He's purely kuantanese, and actually we study in the same college, but as usual I'm so anti-social. So I tak pernah rasa kewujudan dia haha! So pendekkan cerita, fitri kawan dengan my sister and her friend. So one day dorang lepak, I ikut masa tu lah ktorg kenal. We start as a friend, and I don't know macam mana kitaorang boleh terlebih rapat berbanding dengan yang lain.
So after a couple month being such a good friend, and finally one day he didn't asked me to be his girlfriend, but dia just cakap ' you're mine'. So since that masing2 tau lah status masing-masing. We've been together for 2 years, we've meet each other family, bukan setakat family sampai ke atok nenek masing2 dah jumpa. Fitri also bawak I balik Kelantan to meet his grandmother. And we're totally happy at that time.
Everything's changed after he continue his degree at Shah Alam. At first semuanya just fine, fitri akan balik kuantan every week sebab masa tu I still study dekat kuantan. And after I quit my study, balik kl, kerja dekat kl before sambung belajar dekat tempat lain, time tu lah sikit2 fitri berubah. Gaduh, tu benda yang sangat biasa. Pasal benda kecik je pun, pasal tak ada kena mengena pun ada jugak. So finally, 7 Dec 2013 he text me ntk wish my birthday, so I called him after read his text and he didn't pick up. And dia pun hilang macam tu bersama labi-labinya haha!
End up, after a week dia senyap gitu I dapat tau he already find someone else. Wtf? Dia pilih someone yang maybe baru kenal tak sampai sebulan padehal I dengan dia dah 2 tahun. And the most important part is, now they already married. Nahhh it doesn't hurt me anymore, but I keep thinking kiranya 3 tahun lepas wife dia perampas lah kan? Am I right? I tak rasa dorang baru kenal, tak kan baru kenal seminggu terus couple ye dak? So surely, masa I still in relationships with fitri dorang ada keluar senyap2 kan? And kiranya 3 tahun lepas fitri adalah penipu pencurang yang berjaya sebab dia berjaya simpan salah dia and buat semua yang jadi ni macam salah I. Cantik permainan dia!
The point is, I bukan nak ungkit salah dua orang ni dekat I. But nampak tak, tak semestinya kita kenal, kawan, bercinta bagai nak rak, bercinta bertahun2 will end up dia adalah jodoh kita. And tak semestinya kita baru kenal orang tu, baru jumpa, baru sangat sangat sangat dia bukan jodoh kita. Take it in positive ways, if dia bukan jodoh kita, Allah akan hantarkan someone yang lebih baik dari dia untuk kita. So bukak hati, bukak mata, tengok sekeliling, move on! Tapi kalau dia jodoh kita, kita berpisah macam mana pun, Allah akan temukan kita balik. So you've got nothing to lose. Allah knows what the best for us, kita tak nampak sekarang. One day, kita nampak masa tulah kita bersyukur tak terkata.
So the conclusion is, I tak dendam pun dengan fitri and his wife. I will pray the best for both of them. Dah kahwin dah pun, nak dendam apa lagi kan? Dah itu yang tertulis for both of us. Terima and redha lah. At least now I've already know that he never meant to be with me. He's not my jodoh. He already found his own jodoh. Even I still tak jumpa jodoh I,I'm glad for what happened 3 years ago even it takes 2 years for me to totally move on and terima kasih fit,sebab tinggalkan saya dulu:)
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